Always.

Time flies so fassssttt :')

Yes, aku dah besar. Aku dah 17 tahun wooooiii! mama selalu cakap time aku nk keluar dating " dah besar anak mama "

Yes, aku spm tahun ni. Target, nak bagi mama gembira. Family terkejut, dan pheww.. spm ke?! :p

Hah? k, aku kena ubah perangai. Tak ada dah budak2.

Kenangan lama? hm dah boleh simpan jauhjauh, memories .

Makin gemuk, dan pendek. Tu harus, sedihnya doh tak tinggi tinggi.

Amboi kemain, lepak je kerja sekarang. Apa nak jadi?

24 jam dengan hafiz, pergh orang menyampah lah sial ;)

Hidup sorang kt rumah, dengan phone tak habis habis. kesian, anak tunggal kan.

Bukak news feed, kemain orang ni tukar reltaion, org ni break, couple balik. Semua hafal!

Paling best, dua dua tknk mengalah kalau gaduh. Hm, takpela lepas ni aku try mengalah :D

Forever ke? tak bangga, tak hadap nak forever just doa and harapan.

Baju nk brended je? amboihh kemain.. tengok money dulu la, no money no talk bebeh.

jangan berlagak? tak berlagak , tapi show off. Hahahhaha joke, mana ada berlagak babi.

Berlagak bagus? hahahahahahahhahahahahahha memang ;)

Tak sedar diri? hmm sedar je, kenapa ?

Ada boyfren lupa kawan? adakah? mana ada doh, aku tetap dengan korang muahh!:*

Kerek? memang. hidup mesti kena kerek.

Batak hafiz? eh ada ke ? :O tak kot.

K bye, banyak merepek.

I love you, Dear baba ♥

Hi, Salam sejahtera salam satu malaysia! :o

I met my father last sunday. Lama gila tak jumpa baba, almost 1 year :") Untungla , korang. Ada kasih saya seorang ayah/bapak/baba/daddy dan hmm sebagainya.

Dia ajak pergi tengok club dia main bola dekat stadium kelana jaya. PKNS dengan KSS .

Aku macam.... err malas sebab kerja sch tak siap lagi, plus asik dah berjalan je confirm mama didnt let me go. But then, I try ajak hafiz dulu. He was like " dowwan la, segan " then mama cakap dgn dia, baru dia nak ikut.

Baba amik kitorang kt rumah, sempat la borak borak dengan nenek kejap. Rindu baba.. rindu baba.. rindu baba.. thats all.

Paling seronok la pergi mana mana je ada budak besar aku pangil " ayah, bapak, daddy..papa! " Aku? hanya diam membisu , tapi dalam hati aku allah je yang tahu. Rasa nak menangis puas puas :')

Aku dibesarkan oleh mama dan nenek. So, memang kurang kasih sayang seorang bapa :)

Bila tengok cousins cousins or family or kawan kawan, apa apa je " nanti la, tny bapak aku dulu, nanti bapak aku marah laaa, bapak aku kerja kt sini.. bla bla " aku hanya mampu tersenyum dan dengar cerita dorang.

Yes, aku duudk dengan mama alhamdulilah, setakat ni aku dibesarkan sempurna, cukup semuanya.

Tapi, ada juga yang kurang dalam diri aku. Kadang kadang rasa macam, pergh apa ni? kenapa lahir lahir je mcm ni? Bukan salah aku pun, takdir. Allah dah cakap mcm tu.

K sambung. Jumpa baba, tengok baba coach kelab kss. Aku hanya duduk dengan hafiz, and tgok game tu. Tiba tiba kawan baba, ada 1 uncle tu ajak pergi makan mamak, dia nak belanja. Kitorang pun ikut lah.

Uncle tu cerita semua pasal baba. Omg, aku rasa.. nak menangis, dah berkaca dah mata ni. Tp nak bt macam mana, depan uncle tu depan hafiz, kt kedai mamak, buat malu je . Aku cover, baik punya.

Tapi dalam hati aku, taktahu nak cakap apa. Ya allah.. kesianya baba. Baru aku tahu.

Benda ni bukan kita yg minta, tapi semua dah ditentukan . Mama baba bercerai masa aku darjah 2. Mereka kekal selama 16 tahun sahaja, tapi telah menjadi kenangan yang paling pahit bagi mama.

Mama takkan cerita kt aku, sampailah aku besar. Mama cakap macam macam mama dah lalui .

Aku hnya mampu diam, dan senyum. " YELAAH MAMA.... "

Bagi aku, ni semua bukan salah aku. Aku hidup dan muncul dalam dunia ni, aku taktahu apa apa.

Aku kecik lagi, kalau lah..aku dapat selamatkan relation dorang dulu, mesti aku dgn baba skrg :')

Hmm.. nampak je aku happy, huhaaaahuhaa, gelak ketawa sepanjang masa, nampak senang je tapii dalam hati aku? aku kekurangan seorang yg penting dalam hidup. Tapi aku tahu.. baba sentiasa sayang anak dara dia ni :) kan?!

Hm, terima kasih juga sbb allah pertemukan aku dengan lelaki kt atas tu. Dia banyak amik berat pasal aku, pasal family aku. Even aku selalu ejek ejek bila dia cuba nasihatkan aku, tapi dalam hati, aku rasa nak berterima kasih bnyk bnyk sbb dia sbenarnya kisah pasal aku. Aku sayang dia.

Aku sayang family aku, baba mama nenek dan semua.

Im sorry cause ive keep telling stories about me and hafiz lately.I knw its very boring -________- watch someone keep talking about his boyfriend. I knw how some people being so bicthy when they read my post about my boyfriend, Who the fuck cares?! Well, atleast i have something to update, kan kan kan?!

Uhh yeah. There's nothing special about us, but can you imagine you leaved someone , and one week after you're in a relationship with another guy?i mean a new guy. Well i knw, no one can accept ths thing! yes, but its about feelings man! you knw wht, you feels so special when someone who really cares about you, who'll text you every second, minutes and so on?! and someone who suddenly makes your life better than you could imagine it would be? have you been in tht type of situation?!

Yeah, you'll never knw how i feels. A lot of people keep saying " why why why why myra, you're so jerk and bla bla bla,  talking bad about me, perli me here and there , non stop. How do you feel? In this situation i knw i should trust my self, and him. They cant judge me! so yeah. I make a hmm... a veryvery big dicision, and i believe in myself that he can change my life, and he'll make me happy, insyaAllah.

Day by day, we knw each other. We became so close! we're like bestfriends, and enemy in the same time, no such thing as malumalu and so on, everything changed! What i love about this relationship is, my mum likes him! i mean alot, usually she's not like tht, she's so so so fcking diifrent since i met hafiz. We became so close and we're always share secret together! thank god. I just cant imagine how i'd be without hafiz, maybe one day he left me alone. Wht should i do? you guys didnt knw how i feels. I mean how we feels each other.

Have you guys imagine tht your boyfriend will sleep at your house with your family ? going back together after kokorikulum? eat together in one plate?! watch movies, dvd and tv together with you mum? going for dinner with your boyfriend's family? going for jogging for almost every week? laugh, play, like a kid together ?

And having breakfast, lunch and dinner in the whole day? can you guys imagine how i'd live without him?!

Taraaaaaa, we're share everything! told you we're so close.

Just to let you knw that, he mean a lot to me. Like seriously he was. Ive been wondering one day we'll be seperated. Maybe for plkn or anything about distance. I knw sometimes we will always get into a little fight and sometimes, a veryvery big fight.it'll always make me cry and I'm so afraid of losing him. I dont wanna lose you, like seriously i dont. Well, i knw maybe im too young to talk about a serious relationship or even jodoh. But wht i wanted to tell you guys tht i really love him. No matter what happen, i'll always love you bro! remember this , If you're the right guy. You wont leave.

Asalammualaikum.

Sincerely, Your fat-girlfriend.